Driving in traffic, bumper to bumper, and a big truck cuts me off, beeping loud like why do I even exist. We all inch forward at stops and starts, getting madder by the second. I watch one guy talking and gesturing angrily on his car phone. Another guy in a fancy sports car shakes his…
Tag: Pain
Daily Practice
The morning had begun fine, just like any other. I had rolled out of bed and walked to the bathroom to brush my teeth, while thinking about the day to come. Thinking about what work shifts I had today, who I might see, and excited about what I might eat. So quickly though, those mundane…
What does it feel like to be misgendered and/or misnamed?
I think maybe people don’t know what it feels like when they call me by my old name, the legal one I was born with, or when they use the wrong pronouns. So maybe I can explain it to you. Every time someone calls me by my birth name or calls me “he”, a sharp pain hits me hard.
Mirrors Shattering
In this new job, I get to hear lots of stories of youth transitioning. I see myself mirrored through them and watch myself as I transitioned 3 years ago. They show me the pain I haven’t let go of, the vulnerability I tried to leave behind as soon as I could “pass” as a man….
transpiritual 